IT

I am running faster and faster some days I get away,

other days IT gets me and holds me tight,
I scream, yell, I am angry.........

until a hug of reassurance,
IT cant take me away,
I fight IT.

With an understanding touch or word, I stop....

Awake again I begin the day
running faster than before.

For awhile I can rest,
IT seems to rest too.

Then because of one trip, one miss, IT's back closer than before.

Will I ever out pace IT?

I am told no
I will someday tire beyond recuperating.

And then I must face IT

Even go towards IT,
Through a door,
into a room with IT.

Experience IT all over again, CRY, YELL, SCREAM with IT.

Until the pain eases and I am surrounded by a light,
a warm light,
an energized light,
a feeling of no fear,
just trust, hope, peace and most of all unconditional LOVE!

IT is not gone
But IT is powerless to cause me to run anymore.

I walk out the door
the LIGHT follows,
encompasses me,
guides me, enlightens me.

IT stays behind.
I walk,
no longer running, running, running,
but living for TODAY